writing
No One’s Lady of Tears (.pdf 0.05mb)
exhibition text for Maria Wallace’s The Protagonist at Obelus, Berlin, May 2025
Politics in the Closet (full text, .pdf 0.1mb)
script, part of If Tomorrow’s Sun Finds You Within My Boundaries on view at Obelus 2, Berlin, 26 April—17 May 2025
Five people lock themselves up in a closet to get sober, forget the world and experience total darkness.
The Fetish Diagram — v1.1: Ogival Closure (.pdf 0.4mb)
diagram, designed in collaboration with Myour Gape
What is Intimacy? (full text .pdf 0.1mb)
essay, featured in A Bright Darkness: Fugitivity and Intimacy in the Dark Forest - A Seminar Reader, March 2025
Bad Gateway (.pdf 0.2mb)
exhibition text for Henri Haake’s Bad Gateway at Obelus, Berlin, November 2024
Mea, Precious Angel: Provocations Toward a Modularity of the Abyss (digital edition, Scene 1. Erotic, .pdf 12.6mb)
book, 50 pages, cellulose, printed by the artist in edition of 50 in Berlin, DE, May 2024
The companion text to Ciarrocca’s exhibition Until This I Mean This, Mea is an experiment in falling disguised as an attempt to fly.
Drawing on the notion of the erotic articulated by Audre Lorde in her seminal 1978 speech Uses of the Erotic, the text is a psychotic presentation speech by angel Mea Dow introducing ‘the limic:’ a further, undefining feeling of deep erotism. The limic pervades a kind of extreme indulgence in the lush and rampant space—the limit—flourishing between two whose individuation and identification are suspended, letting feeling take the full lead.
In the narrative, identification and identity are understood in connection to their Latin root, idem, meaning 'sameness', standing in contrast to the unbridled diversity of experience. The text weaves together a tapestry of references from academic writings to poetry and literature, eventually linking the logic of the limit to the concept of the alcove—a notion that traces back objectification to the intimate, (I)ndividual realm of daily life. Mea's conclusion is unforgiving: that dimension whereby the unknownable is casted into nothingness—the abyss, is modular, meaning, essentially a-semantic: it originates within a subjectual intimacy both antecedent and posterior to discoursive categories such as gender, race, religion, or economic class.
to kiss on a battlefield / act 1 / exegesis (digital edition, full text, .pdf 21.1mb)
book, 54 pages, alternate cellulose and transparent vellum, printed by the artist in single edition in Los Angeles, CA, USA, Summer 2023
Exegesis of To Kiss on a Battlefield, Act 1, realized at CalArts in Spring 2023
A CROSS POETICS [selected writings 2022-2023] (digital edition, full text, .pdf 11.4mb)
book, 44 pages, alternate cellulose and transparent vellum, originally assembled for CalArts MFA Open Studios, April 2023, printed by the artist in single edition in Los Angeles, CA, USA, Spring 2023
Untitled (digital scans, .pdf 12mb)
poem, 37 pages, cellulose, originally exhibited in Untitled (2022), Gallery D300, California Institute of the Arts, printed in single edition by the artist in Los Angeles, CA, USA, January 2022